by Colleen Harrison | Jul 30, 2012 | Change of Heart, Recovery, Twelve Steps
Lust is an ugly word. And the ugly reality is that I am a lustful person. Not for sex, mind you, but for many other things—a thinner body; a better past; a less challenging present; a fantasy future. Fattening foods. (Now that one really gets me in trouble when...
by Colleen Harrison | Jul 27, 2012 | Change of Heart, Recovery
I had an old van once. It was a very old van that would hold 14 people—twelve of them children. You can imagine that with twelve kids running around and through and sometimes over and under that van, it ended up with a lot of dents and scrapes and dings. It looked...
by Colleen Harrison | Jul 20, 2012 | Change of Heart, Recovery
“And you are sincere—heartbreakingly sincere. But repeat them you do. And you do. And you do.” (Karlene B, He Did Deliver Me from Bondage, p. iii) The word that really stands out to me in this quote is “sincere.” I can’t tell you how sincerely I want to behave...
by Colleen Harrison | Jul 19, 2012 | abstinence, Change of Heart, Recovery
The inclinations of my heart are changing—from the inside out. Leaving behind my addiction is not an exercise of willpower or even a deliberate choice. It’s deeper than that. It’s simply a feeling of not being interested or inclined to do the thing that for years and...
by Colleen Harrison | Jun 29, 2012 | Change of Heart, Recovery
What does it mean when Christ says, “I am Alpha [the Beginning] and Omega [the End]; I am the Author and the Finisher of your faith.” (3 Nephi 9:18) I think it means that He is both the beginning—the guidance—as well as the end—the grace and ...
by Colleen Harrison | Jun 20, 2012 | Change of Heart
The inclinations of my heart are changing. From the inside out. It’s not an exercise of willpower. It’s not even a conscious choice. It’s deeper than that. Rather than a thoughtful, deliberate choice, it’s a feeling—of not being interested in my addictions; not being...
