by Colleen Harrison | Oct 2, 2012 | abstinence, Addiction, Keep Coming Back, Recovery, writing
My abstinence has changed a lot over the years. What and how and when I eat now is nothing compared to what and how and when I ate 25 years ago. If I had met my current self then, I would have been so impressed with me. The kind of abstinence I have now would have...
by Colleen Harrison | Jul 30, 2012 | Change of Heart, Recovery, Twelve Steps
Lust is an ugly word. And the ugly reality is that I am a lustful person. Not for sex, mind you, but for many other things—a thinner body; a better past; a less challenging present; a fantasy future. Fattening foods. (Now that one really gets me in trouble when...
by Colleen Harrison | Jul 19, 2012 | abstinence, Change of Heart, Recovery
The inclinations of my heart are changing—from the inside out. Leaving behind my addiction is not an exercise of willpower or even a deliberate choice. It’s deeper than that. It’s simply a feeling of not being interested or inclined to do the thing that for years and...