Addiction, Perfectionism, Recovery, Twelve Steps
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 “No one would ever see a drunk, passed out in the gutter, and say, ‘There lies a perfectionist!’ But that’s exactly what I was! If I couldn’t do life perfectly, then I wouldn’t...
Change of Heart, Christ, Recovery
We often hear living the gospel compared to following the “strait and narrow path” (1 Nephi 8:20; 2 Nephi 31:18-19; 2 Nephi 33:9) It is my testimony that the “strait and narrow path” is Christ Himself, in the same way that He is the Word made...
God's In Charge, Personal Revelation, Recovery, Twelve Steps
Today, I can say and truly mean it (and not take it back quite so fast), “Thy will, O Lord, not mine be done” (Jacob 7:14). Why? Because today I trust Him. Why? Because today I know Him. I have ceased to be like the good son in the Master’s parable, working in my...
God's In Charge, Mortality, Recovery
If you were in an intensive care unit, would you want the electrocardiogram to suddenly start producing a straight line? Of course not! As long as that line is going up and down, it means you’re alive. Let the line go straight, with no valleys and no peaks, or in...
abstinence, Addiction, Recovery, Tools
Verily, this is fasting and prayer, or in other words, rejoicing and prayer. (D&C 59:14) Fasting is not meant to be a negative experience. It is more than just refraining from eating. Fasting is as much about attitude as about action. It refocuses our...
abstinence, Addiction, Keep Coming Back, Recovery, writing
My abstinence has changed a lot over the years. What and how and when I eat now is nothing compared to what and how and when I ate 25 years ago. If I had met my current self then, I would have been so impressed with me. The kind of abstinence I have now would have...
Change of Heart, Personal Revelation
This evening, as I went to bed, I felt reluctant to kneel, and I expressed that reluctance to the Lord, rather than hiding it (and myself) from Him. I immediately felt His reassurance that He still loves me and is willing to receive my prayers, no matter what posture...